never listen to her.

my brain is completely out of order. it has been for the past month or so. i still haven't found a job either. i just need to get some self-encouragement i guess. i have to start saving up to move soon. and then there's that. i have to decide where it is i'm going to move to. either columbia, sc... or charleston, sc. my best friend lives in columbia, and she wants me to live up there with her. and that would be awesome, but i'm not sure. only b/c of charleston. which could be ruled out soon anyway. the only reason i want to move there is a boy. really, a boy. one that i'm very much in love with, but things are all effed up right now, and i don't know which way they will turn. hopefully for the better. because i do prefer charleston over the rest of sc. but if things don't work out between us, there really isn't much more there for me. gosh. so i'll probably end up in columbia. it kinda sucks there though. haha.